back to writing

It’s been a while since I have done any writing, to be honest, I miss it. I miss being able to bring my thoughts together, pull them out of my head and share them with you (the reader).

Two weeks ago everything in my life changed, I packed up everything I owned and moved to another state. The move was brought about by future plans for going to graduate school as well as being offered a great paying job. After I got settled into my new apartment I went to my new place of work to report for my first day. It was on this day that I found out the job I had moved here for was not going to work out. Due to a lack of business though they could no longer afford to keep me on staff. I was given two weeks of full time pay to begin looking for other work.

This was quite a shock for me, I just spent a lot of money to move to a new place where I didn’t really know anyone and now to find out that the job I thought I had wasn’t going to work out in the end. My first question, “now what?”

I spent the first few days really distressed about all of this. I felt like I was running around all day long but going nowhere. I didn’t even know where to begin when it came to finding a job in this area. I began doing everything I could, talking to everyone I knew, asking them to talk to everyone they knew, and so forth. I began to take “networking” to the next level. Where did this all get me? Still no job.

One day as I was sitting at the table trying to figure out what in the world I was supposed to be doing, I realized that I had not been spending time in God’s word, nor in prayer. This was foundational, what was I thinking?

David wrote in Psalm 119:9, “How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word.” He later writes in v11, “I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.”

These things shouldn’t come to me as such a shock yet I found myself greatly distressed and realizing that I was not grounding myself in Him. As I quieted myself before the Lord, I allow Him to set the agenda for my days, I allowed Him to change the way that I was viewing this loss of a job and the ensuing circumstances.

I still don’t have a job, but I know that God is in control, I know that He is leading me, I know that daily He will provide.