When everything’s uprooted

If you have been following these posts, you know that the past 6 months of my life have been pretty crazy. Even more so the past month, I have moved to a new state, a new city, started a new job, got my hours cut at that new job, and have been looking for another job since then.

So the other day I had some time to go hiking in one of the nearby nature parks, it was a beautiful day, the sun was out, the snow was melting, it was quiet and I was able to just walk and snap a few shots.

I came across this tree that had fallen and been completely uprooted. I hiked up to it as it was slightly off the path. I took some time to study it, to think about it and what happened to bring it to this point. I looked at the cut end of the stump and just marveled at the number of rings that were there. I can’t even begin to contemplate the history that each ring represents. Each one a growth year, each one containing events from a time now passed.

I wonder what my life will look like when people exam the “rings”? Right now I have such an opportunity to trust God with everything, job, wedding, finances, rent, health… despite being uprooted. I know that He is moving me and I am being replanted into a new soil.

I’m so excited about all the changes and ready to continue to embrace the future that God has for me here.


the beauty of a late snowthe beauty of a late snow

This past weekend we got blasted by a snow storm that had worked it’s way across America leaving behind large amounts of what I like to think of as a beautiful winter landscape.

I was surprised when I heard that we were supposed to get between 6 inches and a foot of snow overnight here in Wake Forest. When I woke up Saturday morning and it was still snowing I was so captivated by the beauty. I have honestly missed this since returning to America. While in Russia, this was the scene for so many days out of the year. After having been there for a few years, I had just come to feel comfortable in it.

So as I sat observing taking in this God given gift of creation, I suited up, grabbed my camera and headed out.

A short walk from where I live there is a wooded area that leads off from the road. I began my trek into the woods knowing that the further I got the more beautiful it would become.

I was captivated at every glance as I just marveled at the Creator of all of this. I don’t think I realize how small I am often enough, but Saturday as I ventured out I was sure reminded of it.

Photographing winter scenes is one of my favorite things to do. It can be a challenge as there isn’t always the bank of colors that you get in say spring or fall, but I love the images that come out of properly exposed images shot across the landscape of white and brown. I was fortunate to come across a small stream that was half frozen. This proved to give me some beautiful shots as well adding another dynamic to the two tone scenes.

After snapping off a few frames I realized it was time to put my camera away and just enjoy the view. I don’t do that often as my passion is to definitely capture the beauty I am seeing with my eyes, but there are so times that it is just a moment that I like to set aside for God and worship him in silence.

I walked around in the freezing temps and snow falling for another 3 hours or so before finding an open store to head into to try and warm up before making the long walk home.

We all need to take these times to enjoy God’s creation and know that we are so blessed to be able to observe His beauty and in some cases to capture that beauty in a moment forever through photography.

back to writing

It’s been a while since I have done any writing, to be honest, I miss it. I miss being able to bring my thoughts together, pull them out of my head and share them with you (the reader).

Two weeks ago everything in my life changed, I packed up everything I owned and moved to another state. The move was brought about by future plans for going to graduate school as well as being offered a great paying job. After I got settled into my new apartment I went to my new place of work to report for my first day. It was on this day that I found out the job I had moved here for was not going to work out. Due to a lack of business though they could no longer afford to keep me on staff. I was given two weeks of full time pay to begin looking for other work.

This was quite a shock for me, I just spent a lot of money to move to a new place where I didn’t really know anyone and now to find out that the job I thought I had wasn’t going to work out in the end. My first question, “now what?”

I spent the first few days really distressed about all of this. I felt like I was running around all day long but going nowhere. I didn’t even know where to begin when it came to finding a job in this area. I began doing everything I could, talking to everyone I knew, asking them to talk to everyone they knew, and so forth. I began to take “networking” to the next level. Where did this all get me? Still no job.

One day as I was sitting at the table trying to figure out what in the world I was supposed to be doing, I realized that I had not been spending time in God’s word, nor in prayer. This was foundational, what was I thinking?

David wrote in Psalm 119:9, “How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word.” He later writes in v11, “I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.”

These things shouldn’t come to me as such a shock yet I found myself greatly distressed and realizing that I was not grounding myself in Him. As I quieted myself before the Lord, I allow Him to set the agenda for my days, I allowed Him to change the way that I was viewing this loss of a job and the ensuing circumstances.

I still don’t have a job, but I know that God is in control, I know that He is leading me, I know that daily He will provide.